What Are You Looking For?

John 1:29-42

January 18, 2026

 

            In seminary one of the big decisions you must make is what kind of internship experience you will have. If you wanted to graduate in three years, you would have to find an internship that was summer only, or that you could do part-time during the year while you still attended classes. But if you were willing to make seminary a four-year experience, you could do a full year internship after your second year of seminary and come back to finish school in your fourth year. That’s the option I wanted. I was still single. I could go where I wanted without worrying about how it would affect someone else, and it would provide me with the opportunity to experience a new place and church.

So, when it came time to look for a church internship, I was excited to get a call from a pastor who co-pastored a church with his wife in Alaska, wondering if I was interested in the internship their church offered. The church was not located in a city like Anchorage or Fairbanks. This couples’ church was in Barrow – now called Utquiagvik -- north of the Arctic Circle. I was excited to get the pastor’s call, and I began to think about it and pray about it, and I was seriously considering accepting. This would be the adventure of a lifetime. I thought that was what I was looking for: adventure. This would be the experience to end all experiences. I would be an arctic advocate for Jesus.

Because I was seriously considering this, I talked to my parents about it. They listened and told me to think hard about it before I made any decisions. I don’t know how long it was after this initial conversation that my mother called me. Her voice over the phone sounded serious and urgent, which she was. She wanted to converse seriously with me about the reality of spending a year in the Arctic Circle. “Amy, she said, You are an adult and you can do what you choose, but please think carefully about what this would mean. I think you could find a way to adapt to the cold – as an aside, I lived in Northeast Iowa 11 years, so I did learn to adapt to cold – but I don’t know how you could deal with the lack of light. You will have months of relative darkness, and I don’t think that would be good for you. I think it could really cause you harm. I fear you will end up terribly depressed and that makes me worry.”

I took her words to heart. She was right. I am not an arctic kind of person. I need light. I crave it. I doubt I would have made it the full year. I’ve been to Alaska in the years since, and it is beautiful. But I also went there in the summertime when there was nothing but light. How would I have coped with so much darkness?

You might be wondering where I’m heading with this story because light is not overtly mentioned in our passage from John’s gospel. In some ways this reading from John acts as a hinge passage between the story of Jesus’ baptism which we read last week and the calling of the first disciples, which we will read Matthew’s version next Sunday. In John’s gospel, which is distinctly different from the three others, we do not read a description of John baptizing Jesus. Instead we read John the Baptists’ testimony to Jesus and to his identity.

If we were to read this chapter in full, we’d see that it takes place over a few days. Our part of the passage starts on the second day. John sees Jesus coming toward him and declares,

“Here is the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!”

The day before this John was questioned by religious leaders who wanted to know who he, John, was. They wanted to know the full scope of John’s identity. But John tells them about the identity of another one who will come. John tells them that he is not the Messiah, but there is one who is the Messiah. He is the one they’ve been waiting for. 

            Knowing more about what happens on the first day explains John’s remarks on this second day. John exclaims, “Here is the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world.”  Then he goes on to say that this Lamb of God is the one I was telling you about yesterday. He may be coming after me, but he ranks far ahead of me. I didn’t know him, but this is why I’ve been baptizing. And I witnessed the Spirit descend on him and remain there. The one who told me to baptize told me that this is how I would recognize the Messiah. This is the Son of God.

            We move to the third day. On this day John is standing with two of his disciples. Jesus walks by, and as he does, John proclaims, “Look, here is the Lamb of God!” When John’s two disciples hear this, they leave John to follow Jesus. 

Now we come to the crux, the heart of this passage. Jesus sees John’s disciples following him, and he asks them,

“What are you looking for?”

They call him “Rabbi” which the gospel writer translates for us readers as “teacher.”  But instead of answering his question, they ask him what seems like an unexpected question, at least for a moment and a meeting like this. These potential disciples ask, “Where are you staying?” Jesus responds not by giving them directions or details. He just says, “Come and see.”

Every question in John’s gospel means more than what it seems. When John’s disciples ask Jesus, “where are you staying?” they’re not just asking him about his place of residence. They’re not looking for a house tour or a place to hang for a few days. They want to know about his relationship with God. Their question implies something more, something deeper.

“Look our teacher, John, has proclaimed you to be the Lamb of God, so we want to know for ourselves. If you are indeed the Lamb of God, the rabbi, the teacher we’ve been looking for, then what is your relationship to God? Are you in intimate relationship with him?  Are you staying with God? Are you abiding in God’s presence? Are you the one we’ve been waiting for, hoping for, longing for? Are you the one we’ve been looking for?”

Maybe they were asking, “Are you the Light we’ve been looking for? The Light that will pierce this deep darkness the world is shrouded in?”

What are you looking for? What are we looking for? What is it we seek when we seek to follow Jesus? What are we looking for? Is it a fulfilment of religious concepts like hope, peace, joy? Do we want our own beliefs and values validated? Are we looking for a personal savior or friend? Are we looking for a reason to keep going or a reason to finally stop? Are we looking for justice for causes close to our hearts? Are we looking for righteousness? Are we seeking to be valued, to be cared for, to be loved? Are we looking for the one who will tell us that we are right and others are wrong?

Maybe it’s none of this or maybe it’s all the above and more? I think Jesus understood the great lostness of humanity. I think he understood that we all come seeking … something. I think Jesus realized that we all come seeking Light to lead us from the darkness.

I need to stop and say that I don’t think all darkness is bad. The darkness of the physical world, the night can be beautiful. It is in the darkness that we can see the stars. But there is another kind of darkness, and I think this is what John’s gospel tries to get at over and over again. I think John speaks to the darkness of fear and hopelessness and violence and destruction. God took on flesh to be the Light that broke through that kind of deep darkness. I think the people who followed Jesus were looking for that Light. I think we are looking for that Light. It is Epiphany after all, the season when we acknowledge the Light of God, the manifestation of God, the revelation of God. And the revelation of God is that the Light of the World has come.

What are we looking for? We are looking for the Light, the Light out of the darkness, the Light of the World, the Light that took on flesh and bone and walked with us.

What are we looking for?

The disciples following Jesus wanted to know if Jesus abided with God; they wanted to know about his relationship with God. They wanted to know if he was the Light that they had been seeking. And what’s interesting is that Jesus does not give them a definitive answer to this question. He just replies, “Come and see.”

Jesus doesn’t say, come and worship. Jesus doesn’t say, come and believe. Jesus says come and see. Come and experience. Come and find out for yourselves. Come and find what you have been looking for. Come and find the light you are seeking.

My mom was right all those years ago. The darkness of an arctic winter, while it is right for some, would not have been good for me. To be physically and emotionally and mentally okay, I need light. But looking back, I also realize that I wasn’t considering that internship because I felt called but because I wanted to do something different. I wasn’t called there, and I’m grateful for those who are. My call led me a different direction. I didn’t know what I was looking for. Maybe that is why Jesus’ question stays with me. I’m still not always sure what I am looking for. Yet, I think that I am looking for more than just a regular dose of daylight. I am looking for the Light with a capital L. I am seeking the Light that breaks through the darkness. I am looking for the Light that cannot be overcome by the world’s darkness. Maybe you are looking for that too.

But whatever you are looking for, whatever we are looking for, Jesus calls us to come and see. Jesus calls us to follow, to experience the Light even as we seek it. Jesus calls us to follow and to trust that the Light of God will guide our way, step by step. That is the answer to the question and that is the call and that is the way. Come and see. Thanks be to God.

Let all of God’s children say, “Alleluia!”

Amen.